I CAN’T WAIT TIL SATURDAY!
There are days when I think everyone online is talking about me. The blog posts are about me. The tweets are about me. The articles reference things I’ve said or done or written. And they all seem to be judging me.
I really don’t have a big ego. I’m not full of myself at all.
It stems from being in such a place of insecurity and uncertainty that I’m assuming everything and everyone are pointing a judgemental finger at me. I’m looking for reflections of myself in order to find fault with myself. That’s one of the pitfalls of our online culture. It’s too easy to wallow in the muck because there is so much muck out there. But it’s not muck I’m reading. It’s good things from trusted sources. From people who seem to “know” me. They seem to be in my head, putting my shame into writing.
I know, it’s not about me.
There is a particular person in my life that likes to say to me, “It’s not about you.” Most things aren’t. I’m not crazy….I do get that concept. I just happen to be in a feeling blue/funk/depression and this is how it manifests itself. The real people in my life are loving and supportive and wonderful, so I must look to the non-real “people” in my life to point out my flaws so that I can justify being down on myself.
Oh, and you know what makes it worse? My own blog. I look back on my own posts and think “what a pile of crap”. That’s when I start calling my ego to task. So really there is not one safe place for me online when I’m in this kind of mood.
So bring on the holidays, excited kids and other possibilities. I need to shake out of this funk and stop all of the fingers that faux point at me. *It really isn’t all about me.
*except my own blog. Here, it IS all about me and there’s nothing wrong with that.
Another local blogger has a view on this topic as well. Meet Counting My Spoons and her take on “It’s Not All About You”.
I’m behind on general reviewing, so I thought I’d catch up with another 5 Bullets or Less list.
- Gorgeous movie that pulled me into all of the intense and suffocating feels of trying to survive in space.
- Sandra Bullock for the win.
- Great 3D effects. I’m a 3D fan.
- Shamefully, I wanted either a.) Sandy to break out into Defying Gravity at the end or b.) have Defying Gravity be the song for the end credits. I really think that would have enhanced the ending for me a little bit.
(Book Series) The Black Dagger Brotherhood
- Good ol’ (and I think intelligent) escapist fantasy.
- I get that fluttery stomach feeling a lot. That’s actually my endorsement to read this series.
- I’m only 5 books into the series and I’ve cried 3 times. So there. Bam!
(Musical) We Will Rock You
- Right up my alley. We Will Rock You is the music of Queen, an entertaining story of rebellion and a loud ass band right on stage. Loved it!
- Beautiful cast. Eye candy for days with great chemistry and phenomenal voices.
- My only real criticism is that the music is so grand that any story, even one pieced together by Queen lyrics, is going to come across as cheesy. And I’m okay with cheese. It’s just the cheese factor and the music are too far apart. I’m quite sure the missing element is the loss of grandeur made necessary by a parred down traveling set.
- Sang “Who Wants to Live Forever” all night long in my head.
- Blue eyes. The bluest eyes. I developed an actor crush. Like I do. Shout out to Khashoggi (portrayed by PJ Griffith). I like your band.